Everything needs to change
It's been a slow start to the year for me. Very slow. That's probably evident when we're over half way through the year and i'm still referring to the last six months as the "start!" I've played less poker in the last six months than for any six month period since I first started going for SNE, and while i'd like to blame it on various outside influences I mostly have only myself to blame. I have been eating poorly, not exercising enough, not sleeping well and as a result not playing my best poker. It's a vicious cycle where each part of my life influences the others. Something needs to change. Nay. Everything needs to change.
It's been a tumultuous year for sure - my better half Puneet has ran woefully bad when it comes to matters of health and a lot of times has been spent in and around hospitals for us. But that's still no excuse. I've had two of my worst months money-wise of my career. But that's still no excuse. At the end of the day it comes down to an underprepared mental state coming into the year - and that's all on me.
I pride myself in my mental game when it comes to poker so to think that this year has gone so badly this far in is a pretty big blow to my mental ego. It also might highlight how difficult it can be to stay on top of things and stay mentally healthy as a poker player - there are endless challenges that will face you and if you're not fully prepared then you can easily find months slipping away before you start to fix things.
Anyway, that brings me to where I stand now. I have a bit under 300k VPPs and still fully intend to make my million by year's end. While getting just over 700k VPPs in just under six months is no biggie for a lot of people out there - it's definitely going to be a new record for me if I make it. I know that I can do it if I fully commit myself and put my life back on the correct trajectory. This involves eating well, exercising daily, sleeping properly, studying my game, sticking to a routine and doing all the things you're "meant" to do to be successful in life. I've done them in the past, I know how to do them and I know that I can do them. So now it's a matter of re-implementing the measures in my life to ensure that I actually do the work necessary.
I'm going to break down everything I want to accomplish in a day into actionable items. This has proven to work (both in a broad sense and for me personally). Every day I will commit to following the same rough schedule for eating, exercising, sleeping and playing poker - and I have no doubt in my mind that the results will follow. It's basically scientifically proven that if you do these things right the rest of your life will improve. In my next post I will introduce my schedule and be able to report on how things have been going since implementing it. If anyone finds their life - poker or otherwise - in a similar "rut" to what mine is - then you might want to follow my progress and consider implementing a similar course of action to get your own life back on track. I fully believe it will work for me and it will work for anyone else willing to make change.